Breakdowns, Recitals, and Love.

It's 12:30, and I'm very tired, so if any of this is incoherent, that is why.

So, what happened today? Well, I guess not too much. I slept in for the first time, in a very, VERY long time, and I think I can say that it was well deserved after a week of craziness and exams. So that was really nice. I didn't actually do that much today, I should have, but I didn't. I just needed a day to relax, and sit back. I haven't had one of those in a while, and that's what I did today, nothing.

But, I had my accordion recital tonight. Oh, can I just say how much of a hassle it is to organize things. Sean came =), and he wanted someone to go with, so he wasn't alone. So all afternoon, we called people and texted people, but NO ONE answers their freaking cell phone anymore. Alex was going to go, but then she had a softball game, and then her sister was going to go, but the her mom had a mental breakdown I guess. That's what Alex said. I don't exactly know what happened, but I do know that her mom was freaking out, and taking it out on them. I feel really bad, cause I know what that can be like. But there isn't really anything I can do, except be here for them if they need me. =)

So, the recital. It actually went well. I finally got nervous throughout the day, and it was all for not. I got an AWESOME introduction from my teacher; he introduced me as "the next New England Champion." So, I guess I have a lot to live up to now, but I'm excited, and more ready than ever for it. =) I played my solo pretty well, I play one mistake, but everyone said I played really well, and didn't notice. But I noticed, and it still bugs me.

Also, can I just say I have an amazing boyfriend. I'm probably going to be talking about him a lot, so get used to it. =) He makes me feel so damn special, and loved. But I love him oh so much, more than I think he knows. =) I know we haven't been dating for extremely long, but I feel as though it has been, and I love it. I'm trying to convince my mom to let him stay over monday, so we can spend some time together, I REALLY REALLY want him to. But, I'll let you know what happens.

Alrighty, I'm going to go talk to Sean a bit more then head off to bed. I'll be back tomorrow I'm sure.

The notes sprawled across the lined page,
the sounds of a melody streaming through my head.
I can hear the music,
but to put it into words,
or music,
feels impossible to me.
It's something I love,
I adore.
One thing that can make me truly happy.
My music.
My life.
My addiction.

I love Sean Walsh. =)

CIAOOO