I'm really mad at myself right now. . .

Hey there! Long-time, no-talk.
I'm actually really mad at myself for not writing as I had wanted to. I've really disappointed myself over it. :( I wanted to share. . .myself you could say with all of you. I still can though, I just have to start making it a habit to write and share :).

So, to catch you guys up, lots of things have happened since my birthday. Lots and LOTS of things. I completely broke the promise I made last post of staying away from the male species. Lets see, since Ronnie, there was Chris, Dave, and now Keith. I guess I should explain what happened with each of them.

Chris:
I go to school with Chris. We're in the same grade, and he was someone that I considered I would NEVER date. He just isn't my type, on almost every level. BUT, one day, we just started talking online IMing each other and then he challenges me to a bet. He wanted to see who was the better kisser. Of course, I knew this was just his way of trying to hook up with me, but at that time I didn't really care I guess. So, in between classes at school in the hidden stairwell in the auditorium, we'd meet on occasion and hook up. The hooking up then turned into a "relationship" which I don't think I really wanted. At least none of my friends wanted it for me. So one night, he was supposed to meet me at a play at school with some of my friends. It was pretty close to show time and I was so upset, since I thought I was being stood up. I ended up making a bet with my friends I was with that if he didn't show up by the time the show started, I'd break up with him. As you can bet, he didn't show up until later and he had some lame excuse. So, once again I hid from him in the hallway with some friends, ran away, and my friend Alex told him it was over. Cowardly, I know.

Dave:
I honestly don't really know where to start here. Dave and I met online, again, bad idea. You'd think that I would have learned from Ronnie, OH no. Well, we met finally, started dating, and it went pretty well for about a month. (This was around the holidays mind you.) After about a month, I honestly started to regret the relationship. It just wasn't really working for me anymore. Well, over Christmas time, I went on a cruise with my mom, which was amazing by the way (I'll post some pictures later, I don't have them right now) and anyway, on the cruise I finally figured out what to do and found my feelings out. When I got back, I attempted to break it off with Dave, and easily. But, as I know oh so well, nothing ever goes easy for me. So of course Dave "fought" it at all costs. Begging, yelling, crying, you name it, he did it. Then FINALLY he got the point that we were over and got mad at me, forgave, got mad, forgave, etc. It was so ridiculous I was ready to flip out, and I just about did. Now, it's still sort of like that, but he doesn't try to talk to me anymore and when he does, I just ignore him. Call me a bitch if you want, but if you were in my place, you'd do the same.

Keith:
So, after all of this, I finally met someone nice and worthwhile. Keith. BUT, I have to say, once again my timing could not have been worse. When we started talking, Keith was dating an older guy. But he said it working, but not his ideal relationship. Or at least something like that. In any event, he left this older guy finally for me. I thought we'd start dating shortly thereafter, but we've run into a couple of speed bumps. There have been a couple little tiffs between us and we're still getting over them. So I'm still single, but. . .I'm not looking for anyone else, Keith is it :).

Phew. Glad I got that over with. So I guess I completely broke my promise eh?! But anyway, now you are basically caught up with the relationship statuses of Anthony Federici. :)

Just on other things, school has been pretty good for the most part, minus AP Chemistry. Chem is ridiculous, although, I just go on and get steady B's. Also, I have a competition in three weeks, for my accordion. I'm SO excited for it although very nervous at the same time because I'm competing in the New England Championship. I cannot wait. OH ALSO tomorrow night, I'm going to see BRITNEY SPEARS BITCH. :) I cannot wait for that either, like seriously. I love Britney, and I have since I was little. I've seen her once before, but I can't wait for this one because it's her comeback and come-on, comebacks are ALWAYS better :). I'll let you know how that goes, hopefully pictures included.

Well, I have a PreCalculus and AP Chem test tomorrow, so I'm going to go and hopefully study for those.

Six months pass
and I've been gone.
But now I'm back
with new stories to be told.
New words of "wisdom,"
new times to share,
new things to say, get out, and let go.